this picture reminds me of the upcoming house practices. grr, i hate running.i hate going for house practices.is there any way that i could just not go for them,without having En.M going up to my class,calling and scolding me? as much as i love being in Hermine,everyone knows i suck at running, why cant they just ask those runners, or at least, those people who actually love running,to run? gaahh.

school's starting this monday.in approximately 57 hours. and im super super scared. excited,of course but its teriffying, now that SPM is getting closer.

sudahlah,i think i should go and do something more worthy of my time.ie,studying. so far,i only managed to study the last chapter of mathematics,the first 2 pages of physics and yeah,that's it.so far.hmmm.

ps: did i tell you that i watched Westlife's Show on Tv last night? and Mark looks so fit now,he looks kinda different. but he's gay.too bad.

pss: its 2010 already !!

Hello, let me know if you hear me,
Hello, if you want to be near,
Let me know,
And I'll never let you go

Hey love,
When you ask what I feel, I say love,
When you ask how I know, I say trust,
And if that's not enough,

It's every little thing you do,
That makes me fall in love with you,
There isn't a way that I can show you,
Ever since I've come to know you,
It's every little thing you say,
That makes me wanna feel this way,
There's not a thing that I can point to,
'Cause it's every little thing you do,

Don't ask why,
Let's just feel what we feel,
'Cause sometimes,
It's the secret that keeps it alive,
But if you need a reason why

It's every little thing you do,
That makes me fall in love with you,
There isn't a way that I can show you,
Ever since I've come to know you,
It's every little thing you say,
That makes me wanna feel this way,
There's not a thing that I can point to,
'Cause it's every little thing you do.

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?,
Does it really matter why I love you?,
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out,
Can't you see why they can't ignore you,
If you wanna know,
Why I can't let go,
Let me explain to you,
That every little dream comes true,
With every little thing you do

It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way

-Westlife


god,i've always loved this song.and it makes me want to cry everytime i hear it.

currently listening to : Kris Allen-Live Like We're Dying



i shouldnt have written the previous post yesterday if i knew i was going to spend new year's eve at home -_- but nevermind.

currently downloading Tyler Hilton's songs on limewire.and texting Amalina,talking about Jehan Miskin.okay,lame,i know.but i cant help liking him.we cant help liking him.haha.

2009 is coming to an end already.aww.tomorrow's the 31st.surprisingly,you know i was actually feeling scared about it,but as 2010 comes nearer,im like looking forward to it.a new beginning,shall we say.

i know that i should wait to post the last day of 2009 tomorrow,all those memories and stuff,but i dont think i will be going online tomorrow.who knows what would actually comes up kan.so *deep breath* here goes;

okay,what shall i say about 2009 eh.definitely not one of the best years ive had,but i think its worth remembering.like all those sweat and tears,all those failures.those fights,haha.

this year i actually made quite a lot of new friends.and i grew closer to some people as well.which is very nice.and i got more freedom from ze parents,unlike those years before that.okay,you know what,im stuck.im still figuring out what to write.

okay.highlights of the year;
form 4,would be the first one.i still remember how chaotic it was,on the first week of school.those changing classes thing,and me getting food poisoning,that was unbelievable.haha.form 4 had been nice,and challenging as well.i actually liked my class,and my classmates.they're a bunch of silly,laid back,amazing people,who love nothing more than having fun.and the teachers.haha.total culture shock weh.add math,those science subjects.hmmph.i know that next year would be very very different,with SPM and all.and im totally gonna miss being in form 4,getting scoldings from teachers for not getting good grades,getting scoldings even on the first day of school itself.i guess next year everyone would be pretty serious in everything,no more last minute practical reports and all.haha.form 4 had definitely been a shock for me,and it actually made me think more about my future,like,do you think i should be this and that,yadaa yadaa.

band.
hmm.to tell you the truth,maybe i was actually dissapointed for not getting any posts for next year,because,well,its my last year,i need those certs and all.but im looking on the positive side of it.im sure that something good will turn out afterall.next year would be hectic.with band competition and those other events.it'll be our last year,as a marching band,and i know,all of us are going to work our asses off for the competition.with Surachet,or without Surachet.just thought it would be awesome if Surachet could be our tutor.just look at Satriwitthaya,they won didnt they?haha.but i'll be glad to help,if im needed,thats for sure.

im gonna miss those band camps,those late night practices and of course,this year's concert.band camp was dead awesome this year.concert too,despite all the difficulties we had,along the way.we pulled it off :) remember those moments we cried together,before and after the concert? haih,im gonna miss that.and hearing Annabelle saying to me what a great job we'd done,well,that made my night.and remember those prep talks we had? im gonna miss that too.but maybe Elisa will continue doing it next year.

okay,i cant really write everything here kan.haha.this post will be too long then,and you guys would be bored to death reading it.

i think,the best highlight of the year,despite every single bad thing that has happened this year,would be you. i didnt actually ask for it to happen,but it did.all by itself.and i cant say that i aint grateful for that,because you know,no one could actually make me smile the way i would smile,when i talk to you.i dont want to talk much about it,but im just going to say that you mean a lot to me,and i really really value the friendship we have.

okay,enough.alaa,i wanted this post to be the touching kind of post,but its actually different when you write it on the eve itself.that would be more touching.but wtv.

i'm gonna miss going out.boys hunting dan sebagainya.i have a feeling that i wont be able to go out much next year,thanks to my dad.i'm not gonna miss those giggling,gossiping moments in class,because well,we cant stop that,can we?haha.those things are like,a must in every girl's life.so scratch that.

oh,i really hope 2010 would be a good year.seriously.last year in high school = last year as a school student.imagine how big of a deal that is.not for some people,but for me it is.okay,i shall not talk about it now.wait till next year,after SPM finishes.

im gonna stop writing now.words cant actually describe what im feeling at this very moment.its like,there's so many things to write,but i cant seem to be able to put them in words.so its better if i stop here.

ps: i actually have 3 new resolutions for next year.harith doesnt believe in them -_- he says that resolutions are just promises that are meant to be broken.or something like that,i cant remember.okay,fine,maybe you were right,i dont know.but i think that im going to break my 3rd resolution already.and 2010 hasnt even arrived yet.okay,maybe the resolution is like pretty stupid,but hey at least i have one,kan.haha.

ooh,wait,i think i owe you guys an apology.sorry if i have ever done anything that might have hurt you in any way.i didnt mean it,even if i did,i'm still sorry.lets forget all those bad things and start all over again,yeah :D

xx

i can not wait for tomorrow :D terasa rindu dekat angie pulak ;) angie,i wanna hug you tomorrow.haha

just got home from KL.nothing much.i am just feeling annoyed with almost everyone,right now.sometimes i feel like im the only one who cares.herghh.

original plan was to watch avatar,since he wanted to watch that.but then we went to Kelana Jaya since he wanted to eat at this restaurant,which belongs to my aunt.then i wanted to go to OU,which was also the original plan.but then we stopped by at my cousins' house.yeah the ones i havent been seeing for years (awkward moments) to pick up some SPM books.then it got late,so no OU,yes KL.

we got stuck in a jam.wait,lots of jams.everywhere.i started to get more and more annoyed by then.nothing seemed right,so i just sat back and kept quiet.all through the ride.there goes my night.

im just going to shut my mouth and be oblivious to everyone.dont text me,dont call me.im not gonna reply,im not gonna answer.im just so tired of everyone.maybe i shouldnt have even cared so much.fine then.

harith,im not talking about you.dont say sorry or whatever.

im gonna go study now.goodnight.

isnt this picture gorgeous?

was finding for pictures in my computer folder a few minutes ago,and i came across a picture of my old crush.yeap,that stupid,player crush of mine.i cant believe how stupid i was.i still feel angry,you know,with the way you play with women's hearts.you think you're so cool? thank god i didnt fell in love with you.thank god!

eh,awak,sedar diri lah sikit ye.tak payah lah nak mempermainkan perasaan perempuan.awak ada girlfriend yang memang sangat lah cantik,apa lagi yang awak nak,kan?awak ingat awak tu Romeo sangat ke?kalau muka macam johnny depp tu,takpelah kot.ini tak.awak sanggup mendua kan girlfriend awak yang ingat awak tu setia.dia trust awak,tapi tengok,sia sia je kan.berubah lah,awak.tapi memang betul kot,no matter how many times people deny this,but i still think that guys are all the same.each and every single one of them.betul tak?

tapi kan awak,im so proud to say this,awak tu takde makna dalam hidup saya lagi,okay.tak ada makna langsung.you're just another stupid immature guy yang memang lifeless,takde kerja lain selain mempermainkan perasaan perempuan.and yes,awak permainkan perasaan saya jugak,tapi like what i've said,thank god i didnt fell in love with you.because if i did,then i would be the stupidest person on earth.

i'm not going to ruin my good mood by talking about you. what goes around comes around kan? good luck to you then.you and your cheap words wont get you far,trust me,loser.

my mom and my sister are getting ready for the xmas party.i decided not to go,cause i know it would be full of old,okay,middle aged people and i know none of them anyway pun.so might as well stay at home.

i think my tonsils are getting bigger,and it hurts so much.maybe i should stop eating so much ice cream but whatever.im just hoping that i would be all well by next week.

aquisha,i cant wait to see you :) rindu kot.wanita berkerjaya lah kan *wink haha.

today has been pretty much okay,surprisingly.despite the hot,blazing weather lah.and my sister cant stop talking in this very annoying,high pitched accent.very very annoying.

oh before i forget,congratulations to all those 2009 PMR-ians.i'm so proud of you guys.for those who think that they did bad,and their results arent that satisfying,dont worry.you still have next year.dont look down on yourselves.i may not know how it feels,you know,getting bad results for a big exam,but i do know how it feels like,failing every single science subjects in form 4. so you guys,dont worry.next year,your PMR result doesnt even matter anymore.no one's gonna talk about it next year.

so what if you get bad result kan? it doesnt mean that you're stupid.no one is stupid.its just bad luck,sometimes.anyhow,i'm still proud of you guys,and i know a lot of people who feel the same too.you guys did your very best,thats the most important thing.dont cry,laugh it out.it helps :)

harith,i'm so proud of you *wink haha :) i saw some VI students on TV tadi.i didnt see you,but i saw Azir.haha.that was funny.

ps: reading love quotes on tumblr makes me happy.haha.its amazing how much you can actually relate to them.

oh oh oh;

tomorrow's THE day right? haha.for all the form 3s? i am sure you guys memang dah gila nervous.i was like that last year.gila nervous.i couldnt even sleep properly.

good luck,you guys.terima keputusan dengan hati terbuka.haha.its not the end of the world,dont worry.

good luck to my juniors,Alea,Faez and of course,Harith.text me your result,ye :)

ps: know what felt good? receiving a text message from your estranged cousin,the one you havent been seeing in a long time.yeap,that felt good.miss the old times.what happened to us?

music on playlist: Picture To Burn-Taylor Swift

i've never realised this before; i have a lot of Taylor Swift's songs on my limewire library.haha.and i dont even like her.

everything annoys me today.even the smallest,littlest things.hmm.

this post is just a quick update because i am seriously not in the mood for anything right now.
and i want a new phone.badly.

ps: amalina,i wanna go for the finals this saturday! go support Braceface and 'Chris Brown' and that leader tu.haha.Go Thailand! i lupa nama the school.heh. but it would be really nice if we get to go kan.and guess what? confucion's till 5 pm je :) haha

pss: and you know what,i cant get that image of him smiling yesterday out of my head.when they were marching and then suddenly he smiled.didnt realise he was wearing braces.like what you've said lah,he looked like he was enjoying what he was doing on the field.macam so cute.arghh.

this is just a temporary blogskin.will change it to another nicer,self satisfying one later.
anyway,i want Sarah Dessen's This Lullaby.like oh so badly :(


did you know that you can buy Jodi Picoult's books for just RM19.90.in amcorp mall?the top floor.haha.wanted to buy it just now,but neh,tak jadi.


I NEED TO STOP GOING ONLINE AND START STUDYING.SPM 2010 IS GETTING NEARER EVERY SINGLE DAY.and im so scared.


2010.hmmph.
okay,since we're on ze topic right now,i shall conclude a list of things that i am currently afraid of;

ten: next year
nine: them science and math teachers
eight: biology
seven: chemistry
six: physics
five: ADDITIONAL MATH
four: SPM,of course
three: national service errrgh
two: college
one: LIFE AFTER HIGH SCHOOL


believe it or not,life after high school scares the hell out of me,at this moment.gahh,i'd rather not think about it.but its getting nearer.time passes so fast.i am super duper truper scared.


main conclusion of this whole thing: i need a tutor,a really good one.at this point,im not going to care if he's hot,or not.im not going to even care if he's a man,or a woman.i need those good grades.

chiao,y'all.

i met you today.you completely,completely knocked me off of my feet :D and i liked that.

Thank You Thank You Thank You to my bestest friends for sacrificing your original plan,just to come yesterday :)


i had lots of fun with you guys, we really should go watch movies together again. i think we were probably the loudest people in the cinema yesterday :) haha.macam rumah sendiri je.

some people fight,some people fall,
others pretend,they dont care at all.
if you wanna fight,i'll stand right beside you,
the day that you fall,i'll be right behind you
to pick up the pieces,if you dont believe me,
then just look into my eyes,cause the heart never lies

anyway, i love you guys so so much,thanks for the great time,and sorry for the whole 'mess'.but you guys were awesome.you guys are the best ♥

another year over,and we're still together

its not always easy,but i'm in forever :)

omg,i know this is like so lateeee,but..

HAPPY belated SWEET SIXTEEN, KAMINI !!

HAVE FUN IN NEW ZEALAND :D

I LOVE YAA!

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around


Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one

operation-get-over-you is well on the way :) hooray? haha

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