sorry for privating my blog these past few days. i was contemplating on whether i should, or should not change my blog. ish. i have this thought, every year. every.single.year. and i'd usually end up changing it, and then changing it back to blogspot not long after that. but anyway, i think im sticking to blogspot cause, well, vox is no longer available. i dont know why they closed vox down, but whatevs.

you see, i've been spending a lot of time lazying around, eating, sleeping, eating, eating etc. yes, eating is prolly my favourite thing to do now. and gosh, im getting fatter and fatter day by day :O seriously. gonna prolly start working next week. funny, i was so excited to work last week, but now, blehh, i dont even know whether i wanna work or not anymore. the thought of being tied up with something (ie school) is pretty, what do you call it, overwhelming (?)

oh, 2011 is getting nearer. wow. its scary. i'm so not ready for next year.so not ready. biggest fear of all, SPM result :S i know its like, three months away, but arghhh i'm already thinking of asking my mom to take the result, on my behalf. call me a coward, but i dont think, i seriously dont think i'd have the guts to see my teachers and maybe, disappoint them or something.especially my science teachers. and what if everyone gets super good results and i dont? ohmygosh, im terrified!

expectations. hmm. i seriously hate when people expect too much from me. yes, to you guys, i've always been the 'nerdy' one in the whole family, always carrying a book everywhere i go ( storybooks, i mean. not those scientific, overly educational kind of books, i aint that nerdy :O )
but you know what? i've changed. in many ways, and yes, i do feel like im not as smart as i was before. i dont even feel good about my SPM english paper. english, my favourite subject. hmmph. i dont know, please just dont expect too much from me, for i'm afraid i'd just disappoint you people in the end. tho' i myself need to stop expecting too much sometimes. and i need to stop doing that.

and yes, i am trying to please all of you, but please, understand me.

no, im not talking about my parents, 'cause they're like, fine with me getting anything, and they're pretty open about things like this. its just, gahh. i should really stop talking about this. the more i think about it, the more freaked out i'd get.

anyway, i'm going back to watching Pretty Little Liars now, which has been, pretty addictive and has pretty much taken up my time lately. HARHAR. okay, no. its a nice show, though, macam sorority row, but its too early to say, cause im like, only at episode 3, currently. STUPID MEGAVIDEO. i had to skip episode 2 because of you. cause you removed the video or something. and ' you have watched 72 minutes of TV already, please wait for another 54 minutes shit yada yadaaa ' like seriously? :/ stupid megavideo.

and i've been trying to watch Easy A but of course, i couldnt cause megavideo's being a bitch. i think im just gonna go and buy the DVD or something :( and find True Vinyl also :) gosh, Eric Szmanda was so friggin hot when he was younger, but me thinks he's hotter now ♥

him, and david henrie ♥ ♥ LUSH :)

HOKAYH, im making myself a new CD. and ive said what i've wanted to say.had a long day today. it was fun :)
i'll prolly post something up on New Year's Eve, or even before that. Still not sure of what my New Year's Eve plans are gonna be. but i guess im just gonna go with the flow. yeah, i'd do that :)

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS, by the way?

ps: i miss band :( the feeling you get when you play with everyone :S hmmm. i miss marching, i miss camps, i miss going for outdoor events. oh well. i played my clarinet today, so so satisfying to be able to play, and to actually remember everything i've been taught about, for the past 5 years :) yes, it was a good feeling :) and it was nice seeing my clarinetists. my clarinetists :)

music on playlist : here's a song for the one who stole my heart, and ran so far, that cupid couldnt catch her

remind me not to go to Garden's Borders again. gahh, embarassing sial :'S
and remind me not to wear heels to a mall again. my feet hurts :O
i realized that, i am not a 'heels-wearing' type of girl anymore. i mean, i used to love wearing them but nowadays, erghhh, lets just say that i dont like it, okay.

currently installing updates for my Windows. and i cant friggin open my messenger :S its been a while now.

oh, so, how was prom? hehe. Fa, if you're reading this, just wanna let you know, YOU LOOKED REALLY PRETTY :) i couldnt see priy and han and florence kot. macam takde gambar je. but you looked soooooo pretty.

you need to story me when we go out nanti ah :) haha.

and uhmm, congrats to those who got perfect, straight As for PMR. alah, kalau tak dapat straight As pun, congrats jugak. congrats to Amal's brother, even though ive never actually seen him. haha.

imma go sleep now. had a very long day today :/ hmmph. planning to stay in tomorrow, but you prolly dont need to know that. aha.

oh and, i had fun today. walking around with Erra :) tiring but fun. haha

ps: i've decided that, maybe, im not going to go for Tay Swift's concert next year. haha. just cause i bet it'll be more expensive cause its in singapore and all, so yeah.

pss: Najwa, if you're reading this, whats up with your twitter? sejak bila kau suka Sarwar tu?

later then :D

hello :)
i feel like i've been abandoning this blog for such a long time, but heck, no one prolly reads it anyway.
haha. sorry, its just that, my post-SPM days have been pretty much ordinary, and im just waiting for something good to happen. HAHA, yeah,ok.

so, like i've said, my post-exam days have been pretty much, ordinary. like, i would wake up early in the morning, do what i am supposed to do, and then go back home, and spend my time on the computer. i have such a boring life. haha. but, in a way, its actually fun considering that my parents have stopped nagging and scolding me for using the computer every day, like they used to do back before SPM :) and i pretty much get to watch all those series i've been longing to watch, like, forever. haha. and i dont even use facebook a lot now. yay me :)

this is why i didnt want to write anything, but hey, i am bored.

i think i should stop before i start writing nonsensical, prolly humiliating stories.
so, till i finally get something exciting to write about,
bye :P

ps: klwmbc's finals is tonight :( sucks that i cant go. oh well
pss: i cant wait for Han and Amal to come back :)

i love this song :) always have, always will

someone asked me the other day, " whats your favourite song? you tak pernah bagitau i pun"
that got me thinking. i dont really know. to tell you the truth, i have so many favourite songs. they all mean something to me. and it changes depending on my mood, and depending on what type of a situation im going through. but,

i have this one song, that means a lot lot lot to me. some may say, " oh, ala, lagu ni biasa je, tak best pun." but it became one of my favourites to listen to.

no, im not gonna tell you the story behind it, but try to read between the lines :) and yes, its a malay song :D

Namun apa yang ku rasa
Aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tahu harus berkata apa

this post has nothing to do with Eric Szmanda. hahaha. its just that, i dreamt of him last night.prolly cause ive been watching too much of CSI lately. so today i was sooo eager to watch CSI la kan, turned out, takde pulak cerita tu hari ni. Bodoh -____-


hello :)
i should be studying right now, but oh well.
i missed my blog :D

as you all know, SPM is still going on. i'll be having my last paper on the 8th. okaylah, my paper officially ends on the 13th, ( or is it 14th? im not sure) but on the 8th tu, macam, all the hardcore papers habis, so yeahhh :)

SPM has been pretty much not what i've expected. hmm. like, i dont know, i feel that some of the papers were harder than those past years' ones? i dont know, maybe its just me. BUT, i know that i've done my best, and i'm just hoping for the best. aint aiming for those straight As anyway.

i seriously need to stop being so paranoid. like, i had physics last thursday, and im pretty sure i did write my angka giliran and all, but somehow, when i got home, i started thinking whether i wrote it or not. and that freaked me out. A LOT. it still does. so practically, im just hoping that the paper wont get torn, or lost. ya allah, help me.

2 papers left :) i've already started planning on what i should do and what i would do after this. my mom has been helping me these past few days, and i'm so glad. haha. but first thing first, of course, go out, and watch movies and go shopping.oh, and dye my hair. and i have a steamboat date with 'em girlfriends on friday. OHMYGOSH im so excited.

K's been helping me a lot. in a weird way.haha.i dont even know him that well, so yeah. weird.

oh, yess, so, turns out that i would be going for either the second or the third batch for 2011's NS! big whooooooop ! im gonna have so much free time, to work, to go for taylor swift's concert ( hopefully ) and go for classes and all. sadly, omg, i wont be able to watch Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding :( hmmmmmmm. she's so pretty, aint she? hee

i dont know what else to write. i just cant wait for SPM to be over. totally gonna freak out when i get my results. i know it wouldnt be as good as PMR and all. but oh well, everything happens for a reason, right? kalau dapat good results, alhamdulillah. kalau tak, its not the end of the world :) but of course, siapa tak nak good results kan? hmmm.

okay, i gotta go. im so hungry. ive been eating a lot, A LOT these days. and, bangga gila, i made myself a homemade quesadillas :) with lots and lots of cheese in it. haha. ok, shut up, sya.

aite, till next time :)
byebyebye
xx


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