sorry for privating my blog these past few days. i was contemplating on whether i should, or should not change my blog. ish. i have this thought, every year. every.single.year. and i'd usually end up changing it, and then changing it back to blogspot not long after that. but anyway, i think im sticking to blogspot cause, well, vox is no longer available. i dont know why they closed vox down, but whatevs.
you see, i've been spending a lot of time lazying around, eating, sleeping, eating, eating etc. yes, eating is prolly my favourite thing to do now. and gosh, im getting fatter and fatter day by day :O seriously. gonna prolly start working next week. funny, i was so excited to work last week, but now, blehh, i dont even know whether i wanna work or not anymore. the thought of being tied up with something (ie school) is pretty, what do you call it, overwhelming (?)
oh, 2011 is getting nearer. wow. its scary. i'm so not ready for next year.so not ready. biggest fear of all, SPM result :S i know its like, three months away, but arghhh i'm already thinking of asking my mom to take the result, on my behalf. call me a coward, but i dont think, i seriously dont think i'd have the guts to see my teachers and maybe, disappoint them or something.especially my science teachers. and what if everyone gets super good results and i dont? ohmygosh, im terrified!
expectations. hmm. i seriously hate when people expect too much from me. yes, to you guys, i've always been the 'nerdy' one in the whole family, always carrying a book everywhere i go ( storybooks, i mean. not those scientific, overly educational kind of books, i aint that nerdy :O )
but you know what? i've changed. in many ways, and yes, i do feel like im not as smart as i was before. i dont even feel good about my SPM english paper. english, my favourite subject. hmmph. i dont know, please just dont expect too much from me, for i'm afraid i'd just disappoint you people in the end. tho' i myself need to stop expecting too much sometimes. and i need to stop doing that.
and yes, i am trying to please all of you, but please, understand me.
no, im not talking about my parents, 'cause they're like, fine with me getting anything, and they're pretty open about things like this. its just, gahh. i should really stop talking about this. the more i think about it, the more freaked out i'd get.
anyway, i'm going back to watching Pretty Little Liars now, which has been, pretty addictive and has pretty much taken up my time lately. HARHAR. okay, no. its a nice show, though, macam sorority row, but its too early to say, cause im like, only at episode 3, currently. STUPID MEGAVIDEO. i had to skip episode 2 because of you. cause you removed the video or something. and ' you have watched 72 minutes of TV already, please wait for another 54 minutes shit yada yadaaa ' like seriously? :/ stupid megavideo.
and i've been trying to watch Easy A but of course, i couldnt cause megavideo's being a bitch. i think im just gonna go and buy the DVD or something :( and find True Vinyl also :) gosh, Eric Szmanda was so friggin hot when he was younger, but me thinks he's hotter now ♥
him, and david henrie ♥ ♥ LUSH :)
HOKAYH, im making myself a new CD. and ive said what i've wanted to say.had a long day today. it was fun :)
i'll prolly post something up on New Year's Eve, or even before that. Still not sure of what my New Year's Eve plans are gonna be. but i guess im just gonna go with the flow. yeah, i'd do that :)
WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS, by the way?
ps: i miss band :( the feeling you get when you play with everyone :S hmmm. i miss marching, i miss camps, i miss going for outdoor events. oh well. i played my clarinet today, so so satisfying to be able to play, and to actually remember everything i've been taught about, for the past 5 years :) yes, it was a good feeling :) and it was nice seeing my clarinetists. my clarinetists :)