THIS BLOG IS SOOO DEAD.
Harharhar Not.


Errm,
I actually have another blog, i mean, a new wordpress account.
Feel free to drop by or something ( macam iklan kedai pulak)
Okay? Okay :)
Have a good week, errbody!

http://ofheartsandheroes.wordpress.com

this is just a 'test' post. currently in sir aiman's class, blogging through phone ( i hope he doesnt see me doing this). ok thats it. CTU test is at 2 and i havent really studied :| oh well

ps: thinking of changing to wordpress cause err, i just downloaded its app on my phone. lame reason,i know.but yeah, whatevs. what do you think? hmm.

currently sitting on the first-floor-stairs, as the lobby's full with people drawing banners for the islamic week.

howdy :D how have ya'll been doing? hehe

things here have been great, so far :) never thought i'd actually find it fun, but yeah, it is fun.
dah 3 hari dah kat sini, and the experiences ive gained so far, are priceless. really.

i nak tulis banyak lagi, actually, but its already 12.41. my class is starting at 2 ( thank god today's class is just in Bukit Sekilau, which is where im staying. we have to go back and forth to Padang Lalang, if we have classes there) i need to get ready. so till then :)

ps: i need to buy a new hairdryer. hairdryer i dah meletup -,- terbaik lah kan.

being in this situation sucks. i cant even explain. its like, one minute you're so friggin happy, then the next, you just feel like shutting yourself out from the whole world and all.

its exhausting, really.

i got way too attached to you this time.
and i dont know how to get myself out of it. grr.


i just wanna be someone's priority for once. someone's first choice.
not second, not someone you'd run to when no one's around

so, im home. for about a week :)

you have no idea how glad i am to be home. aah. MDS is officially over. for those who doesnt know,MDS stands for minggu destini siswa. its actually some sort of an orientation lah.

it.was.torturing.
at first. but it was fun, towards the end, when everyone started to loosen up.
im not gonna write about it. hmm.

but it was one hell of an experience. still find it hard to believe that i have actually stayed in pahang, w all these people, these strangers, for a week. *bangga kejap*

cant wait to see what kuantan has to offer :) walaupun campus dia tak sebesar jengka, but we'll see.

ps: nak jumpa him and him lagi boleh tak? hmm

so uhmm, imma start blogging again. dont ask why.

currently having nothing to write about so im just gonna write a few updates;

- last day of work is gonna be on the 10th.
- hoping that i wouldnt have to go for national service now that i dah dapat offer to go for matriks.quite looking forward to the idea of going for matriks, since ze close friends are placed there as well :) hehe.
- still have a lot of things waiting to be settled. unfinished business, unfinished convos, unfinished relationships. am gonna try settling them before i leave ( and zamri still owes me pizza :D )
- currently in a confused state. never mind. you prolly dont need to know that
- current obsession ; henry charles albert david windsor ♥ again. ahh lusshhh :)
- trying not to think of all those people i'd have to leave behind if i (really really have to) go for NS or even matriks :(
-please ignore the previous post, the one i wrote in january. we had our moments but we are no longer together. let me make this clear; i dont regret having a relationship with you, and im not holding any grudges. you made me happy, and i thank you for that. you have your own life, and its your choice kalau kau nak buat scandal dengan isteri orang pun. just saying. i am not, and never will allow myself to be someone's second choice again.

will update more later k. till then :)


ps: tak guna kalau cakap je tapi tak tunjukkan pun. ignore lah. dah biasa dah. dah bosan dengar all these sweet talks. sorry lah.

pss: cant wait nak sleepover dengan my sayangs. hehe

'cause i like it when you smile at me :)

i think i like you, and i never thought i'd say this,
but i hope you feel the same way too :D

music on playlist : Look what you've missed, living like this, nobody wins


been busy with work and all.
currently reading my msn saved messages. i didnt know they automatically save all your convos. heh.
so yeah, currently reading old convos. and gahh, it makes me wanna cryyyy :'(

okay, enough.
gonna go sleep now. working full shift/time tomorrow. hmmm.

sorry for privating my blog these past few days. i was contemplating on whether i should, or should not change my blog. ish. i have this thought, every year. every.single.year. and i'd usually end up changing it, and then changing it back to blogspot not long after that. but anyway, i think im sticking to blogspot cause, well, vox is no longer available. i dont know why they closed vox down, but whatevs.

you see, i've been spending a lot of time lazying around, eating, sleeping, eating, eating etc. yes, eating is prolly my favourite thing to do now. and gosh, im getting fatter and fatter day by day :O seriously. gonna prolly start working next week. funny, i was so excited to work last week, but now, blehh, i dont even know whether i wanna work or not anymore. the thought of being tied up with something (ie school) is pretty, what do you call it, overwhelming (?)

oh, 2011 is getting nearer. wow. its scary. i'm so not ready for next year.so not ready. biggest fear of all, SPM result :S i know its like, three months away, but arghhh i'm already thinking of asking my mom to take the result, on my behalf. call me a coward, but i dont think, i seriously dont think i'd have the guts to see my teachers and maybe, disappoint them or something.especially my science teachers. and what if everyone gets super good results and i dont? ohmygosh, im terrified!

expectations. hmm. i seriously hate when people expect too much from me. yes, to you guys, i've always been the 'nerdy' one in the whole family, always carrying a book everywhere i go ( storybooks, i mean. not those scientific, overly educational kind of books, i aint that nerdy :O )
but you know what? i've changed. in many ways, and yes, i do feel like im not as smart as i was before. i dont even feel good about my SPM english paper. english, my favourite subject. hmmph. i dont know, please just dont expect too much from me, for i'm afraid i'd just disappoint you people in the end. tho' i myself need to stop expecting too much sometimes. and i need to stop doing that.

and yes, i am trying to please all of you, but please, understand me.

no, im not talking about my parents, 'cause they're like, fine with me getting anything, and they're pretty open about things like this. its just, gahh. i should really stop talking about this. the more i think about it, the more freaked out i'd get.

anyway, i'm going back to watching Pretty Little Liars now, which has been, pretty addictive and has pretty much taken up my time lately. HARHAR. okay, no. its a nice show, though, macam sorority row, but its too early to say, cause im like, only at episode 3, currently. STUPID MEGAVIDEO. i had to skip episode 2 because of you. cause you removed the video or something. and ' you have watched 72 minutes of TV already, please wait for another 54 minutes shit yada yadaaa ' like seriously? :/ stupid megavideo.

and i've been trying to watch Easy A but of course, i couldnt cause megavideo's being a bitch. i think im just gonna go and buy the DVD or something :( and find True Vinyl also :) gosh, Eric Szmanda was so friggin hot when he was younger, but me thinks he's hotter now ♥

him, and david henrie ♥ ♥ LUSH :)

HOKAYH, im making myself a new CD. and ive said what i've wanted to say.had a long day today. it was fun :)
i'll prolly post something up on New Year's Eve, or even before that. Still not sure of what my New Year's Eve plans are gonna be. but i guess im just gonna go with the flow. yeah, i'd do that :)

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS, by the way?

ps: i miss band :( the feeling you get when you play with everyone :S hmmm. i miss marching, i miss camps, i miss going for outdoor events. oh well. i played my clarinet today, so so satisfying to be able to play, and to actually remember everything i've been taught about, for the past 5 years :) yes, it was a good feeling :) and it was nice seeing my clarinetists. my clarinetists :)

music on playlist : here's a song for the one who stole my heart, and ran so far, that cupid couldnt catch her

remind me not to go to Garden's Borders again. gahh, embarassing sial :'S
and remind me not to wear heels to a mall again. my feet hurts :O
i realized that, i am not a 'heels-wearing' type of girl anymore. i mean, i used to love wearing them but nowadays, erghhh, lets just say that i dont like it, okay.

currently installing updates for my Windows. and i cant friggin open my messenger :S its been a while now.

oh, so, how was prom? hehe. Fa, if you're reading this, just wanna let you know, YOU LOOKED REALLY PRETTY :) i couldnt see priy and han and florence kot. macam takde gambar je. but you looked soooooo pretty.

you need to story me when we go out nanti ah :) haha.

and uhmm, congrats to those who got perfect, straight As for PMR. alah, kalau tak dapat straight As pun, congrats jugak. congrats to Amal's brother, even though ive never actually seen him. haha.

imma go sleep now. had a very long day today :/ hmmph. planning to stay in tomorrow, but you prolly dont need to know that. aha.

oh and, i had fun today. walking around with Erra :) tiring but fun. haha

ps: i've decided that, maybe, im not going to go for Tay Swift's concert next year. haha. just cause i bet it'll be more expensive cause its in singapore and all, so yeah.

pss: Najwa, if you're reading this, whats up with your twitter? sejak bila kau suka Sarwar tu?

later then :D

hello :)
i feel like i've been abandoning this blog for such a long time, but heck, no one prolly reads it anyway.
haha. sorry, its just that, my post-SPM days have been pretty much ordinary, and im just waiting for something good to happen. HAHA, yeah,ok.

so, like i've said, my post-exam days have been pretty much, ordinary. like, i would wake up early in the morning, do what i am supposed to do, and then go back home, and spend my time on the computer. i have such a boring life. haha. but, in a way, its actually fun considering that my parents have stopped nagging and scolding me for using the computer every day, like they used to do back before SPM :) and i pretty much get to watch all those series i've been longing to watch, like, forever. haha. and i dont even use facebook a lot now. yay me :)

this is why i didnt want to write anything, but hey, i am bored.

i think i should stop before i start writing nonsensical, prolly humiliating stories.
so, till i finally get something exciting to write about,
bye :P

ps: klwmbc's finals is tonight :( sucks that i cant go. oh well
pss: i cant wait for Han and Amal to come back :)

i love this song :) always have, always will

someone asked me the other day, " whats your favourite song? you tak pernah bagitau i pun"
that got me thinking. i dont really know. to tell you the truth, i have so many favourite songs. they all mean something to me. and it changes depending on my mood, and depending on what type of a situation im going through. but,

i have this one song, that means a lot lot lot to me. some may say, " oh, ala, lagu ni biasa je, tak best pun." but it became one of my favourites to listen to.

no, im not gonna tell you the story behind it, but try to read between the lines :) and yes, its a malay song :D

Namun apa yang ku rasa
Aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tahu harus berkata apa

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