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bittersweet symphony

posted on @ 5:33 AM

i feel like writing something for my members right now.since everyone's writing about the band concert (read angie's post.tersangatlah panjang ;p )

i feel sad,like im just going to burst out crying any minute now.listening to Rascal Flatts doesnt help,no,not at all.

i still remember my first day in band.not clear,but enough to be remembered.when all my friends chose to be in the percussion section,i chose to be a clarinetist instead.and believe me,i dont regret choosing it.never,not in a million years.

i still remember i was bummed about not being able to play.i was a colourguard back then.

there are so many things i wanna talk about but i just cant seem to find the right words to write.

i have to say,i miss being the assistant section leader,working with kamini.remember you called me when i was in Penang just to discuss about the commandments? and i was like,can i call you back?im at the wedding reception ni...all the hardwork.i miss working with you.

i miss having annabelle with us.im grateful to have you as my senior,im grateful for everything you have done for me,everything.thank you so much for that.i miss having late night smsing sessions with you.i have learned a lot about you from that.sorry i kept falling asleep.its just that,you took so long to reply.haha.and im so glad that when i told you about how i felt (you know..) you werent angry with me.really.

being the section leader has been an interesting job for me.i've gained a lot of experience from it.really.this year has been hard,so far.things changed,it wasnt like last year,or the year before,aye?

elisa,thank you for being so supportive.working with you has been great.you never questioned anything and everything i have done,and i really appreciate that.i really respect you.for who you are.a very good person,indeed.

lydia,you're a great player.a very nice one too.i can see how hard you have worked,and i really respect that.i know i like to tease you and everything,but if i have ever said anything to hurt you,im sorry.i didnt mean to.

clare,remember when your mum called me asking whether you can play for concert?haha.from there,i could see how much you wanted to play for concert.i can see how far you would go to get something.i respect you for that,really.your determination amazes me.

pui yee,i believe you can go far.i know you have been working hard.and i know that i have been scolding you a lot,but believe me,its for your own good.you have to work harder,because you will be a senior in a few years and it will be your responsibility to deal with the recruits.

sam,you are a talented player.believe me.i can see that.but you need to stand up more for yourself.give all out if you want something.you and pui yee will be the tunggak of the clarinet section in a few years,and i want you guys to do your best.

chyn thong,god i miss having you in my section.do you know how proud i am when i see you play the percussion instruments? i am so proud of you.and you proved the percussionists wrong,im telling you.but no worries,they are so proud of you.

my saxophone section and my flute section,you all are a bunch of talented people.dont waste all that talent,okay.you guys can go far,really.thanks for being awesome,for listening and all.

i love all of you XD

never give up,okay.i know i have fallen so many times,and at times i just felt like resigning.but i cant just leave you guys like that,it hurts me.when you guys played the 3 songs yesterday,i literally felt like crying.look how far we've come.i wasnt born a leader,but believe me,there is never a day where i dont think of what i can do to make our section better.never.

if you fall,get back up.

selagi im your section leader,i will never let you take the blame for things.i told annabelle this before,i am responsible for any fault my members make.and i will take the blame for it,no questions asked.

i have to thank my friends as well,most of them in the percussion section.ganga,for always bullying me.angie,for being so nice and caring,for supporting and for being as vain as i am,haha,anna,for being so awesome, and kim fong,for being so sweet.

amelia,for being the most awesome person to have a laugh with.remember when we were in the shuttle bus,waiting for the bus to move,and you were on the phone with your mum?haha.and remember when we were on the train to klcc tu?with ms tan all.i will never forget that.

priy and nas,for being so supportive and nice and funny and witty and gay! haha.thanks for being there for me.you know ily guys.

amalina,you're the best.thank you for everything.thank you for being so so so supportive.thanks for caring.you are a beautiful person,inside and out.really.i love you.sayang kau haha

and hannan,you're the greatest friend ever.thank you for always being there.you've helped me up when i've fallen hard on the ground.you were there when i was down.i know how angry you were when i wanted to give up,and thank god,i didnt.you helped me through it.thank you for believing in me.i love you ;) you know i do,kan.

remember last band camp,we couldnt sleep and we were feeling so hungry.and amalina saved the day(night) by acting like james bond (with the turning 360* thing and all) to get the food.that was hilarious.thank god ms c didnt say anything,although i think she knows perfectly well what we have done that night.

and the late night gossiping sessions.i will miss that seriously.i think im not ready to leave school.not yet.not when we are having the time of our lives.no.

and remember last night,when we sang MJ's heal the world? i'll cherish every single moment i have with all of you ;)

i better stop writing now before i start crying.i cant believe how fast time flies.

again,i am so proud of all of you.i am nothing without you guys,seriously :)

i believe we are better now than we were before.i believe what we have been through has made us who we are now,a better person.a more responsible one.

I've learned -
that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.