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posted on Tuesday, May 3, 2011 @ 9:03 AM

obviously, you dont.

you dont really want to stay, no

posted on @ 6:43 AM

so uhmm, imma start blogging again. dont ask why.

currently having nothing to write about so im just gonna write a few updates;

- last day of work is gonna be on the 10th.
- hoping that i wouldnt have to go for national service now that i dah dapat offer to go for matriks.quite looking forward to the idea of going for matriks, since ze close friends are placed there as well :) hehe.
- still have a lot of things waiting to be settled. unfinished business, unfinished convos, unfinished relationships. am gonna try settling them before i leave ( and zamri still owes me pizza :D )
- currently in a confused state. never mind. you prolly dont need to know that
- current obsession ; henry charles albert david windsor ♥ again. ahh lusshhh :)
- trying not to think of all those people i'd have to leave behind if i (really really have to) go for NS or even matriks :(
-please ignore the previous post, the one i wrote in january. we had our moments but we are no longer together. let me make this clear; i dont regret having a relationship with you, and im not holding any grudges. you made me happy, and i thank you for that. you have your own life, and its your choice kalau kau nak buat scandal dengan isteri orang pun. just saying. i am not, and never will allow myself to be someone's second choice again.

will update more later k. till then :)

ps: tak guna kalau cakap je tapi tak tunjukkan pun. ignore lah. dah biasa dah. dah bosan dengar all these sweet talks. sorry lah.

pss: cant wait nak sleepover dengan my sayangs. hehe

posted on Saturday, January 29, 2011 @ 6:04 AM

'cause i like it when you smile at me :)

i think i like you, and i never thought i'd say this,
but i hope you feel the same way too :D

yes :)

posted on Friday, January 21, 2011 @ 5:29 AM

Let's count up the reasons to cry

posted on @ 5:12 AM

music on playlist : Look what you've missed, living like this, nobody wins

been busy with work and all.
currently reading my msn saved messages. i didnt know they automatically save all your convos. heh.
so yeah, currently reading old convos. and gahh, it makes me wanna cryyyy :'(

okay, enough.
gonna go sleep now. working full shift/time tomorrow. hmmm.

So what's left to prove, we have made it through

posted on Friday, December 31, 2010 @ 5:01 AM

so, urmm, i guess;

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

goodbye 2010, hello 2011

here's to a chance to start over and make it right :)

i'll be spending my new year at home, prolly watching Pretty Little Liars. whatevs.

so, err, 2010 has been both pleasant and unpleasant in a way, but heck, its almost 2011, lets not dwell on the past.

im determined to start being optimistic.
and im not going to post some long messed up post, like i did last year. haha.
its just best to say that i've had my fair share of happiness and sadness over the last 12 months. i've had my ups and downs. some of my wishes came true, and some didnt. but, c'est la vie, isnt it? c'est la vie. haha.

and im glad i had my loved ones with me, all through it.

i am a very blessed person, alhamdulillah

i do have my own resolutions, but im not gonna write it here. i'm just gonna keep it to myself and go with the flow.

and i might not be totally ready ( okay, at times i do feel like im sooo not ready ) for 2011, but i guess im just hoping that it would be more meaningful and better than 2010. life doesnt stop for anybody, right.

so again,
happy new year. i hope that 2011 will be a very good year for all of you. and i hope you get everything you've ever wished for. and i hope you're happy with the ones you love.

ps: forgive me if i've ever done anything that might have upset or hurt any of you, over the last 12 months. if i have, then i'm truly sorry.

lots and lots of love ♥

were you weak, was i strong?

posted on Wednesday, December 29, 2010 @ 4:48 AM

music on playlist : Got a secret, can you keep it? Swear this one you'll save. Better lock it, in your pocket, taking this one to the grave. If I show you then I know you won't tell what I said. 'Cause two can keep a secret if one of the 'em is dead

sorry for privating my blog these past few days. i was contemplating on whether i should, or should not change my blog. ish. i have this thought, every year. every.single.year. and i'd usually end up changing it, and then changing it back to blogspot not long after that. but anyway, i think im sticking to blogspot cause, well, vox is no longer available. i dont know why they closed vox down, but whatevs.

you see, i've been spending a lot of time lazying around, eating, sleeping, eating, eating etc. yes, eating is prolly my favourite thing to do now. and gosh, im getting fatter and fatter day by day :O seriously. gonna prolly start working next week. funny, i was so excited to work last week, but now, blehh, i dont even know whether i wanna work or not anymore. the thought of being tied up with something (ie school) is pretty, what do you call it, overwhelming (?)

oh, 2011 is getting nearer. wow. its scary. i'm so not ready for next year.so not ready. biggest fear of all, SPM result :S i know its like, three months away, but arghhh i'm already thinking of asking my mom to take the result, on my behalf. call me a coward, but i dont think, i seriously dont think i'd have the guts to see my teachers and maybe, disappoint them or something.especially my science teachers. and what if everyone gets super good results and i dont? ohmygosh, im terrified!

expectations. hmm. i seriously hate when people expect too much from me. yes, to you guys, i've always been the 'nerdy' one in the whole family, always carrying a book everywhere i go ( storybooks, i mean. not those scientific, overly educational kind of books, i aint that nerdy :O )
but you know what? i've changed. in many ways, and yes, i do feel like im not as smart as i was before. i dont even feel good about my SPM english paper. english, my favourite subject. hmmph. i dont know, please just dont expect too much from me, for i'm afraid i'd just disappoint you people in the end. tho' i myself need to stop expecting too much sometimes. and i need to stop doing that.

and yes, i am trying to please all of you, but please, understand me.

no, im not talking about my parents, 'cause they're like, fine with me getting anything, and they're pretty open about things like this. its just, gahh. i should really stop talking about this. the more i think about it, the more freaked out i'd get.

anyway, i'm going back to watching Pretty Little Liars now, which has been, pretty addictive and has pretty much taken up my time lately. HARHAR. okay, no. its a nice show, though, macam sorority row, but its too early to say, cause im like, only at episode 3, currently. STUPID MEGAVIDEO. i had to skip episode 2 because of you. cause you removed the video or something. and ' you have watched 72 minutes of TV already, please wait for another 54 minutes shit yada yadaaa ' like seriously? :/ stupid megavideo.

and i've been trying to watch Easy A but of course, i couldnt cause megavideo's being a bitch. i think im just gonna go and buy the DVD or something :( and find True Vinyl also :) gosh, Eric Szmanda was so friggin hot when he was younger, but me thinks he's hotter now ♥

him, and david henrie ♥ ♥ LUSH :)

HOKAYH, im making myself a new CD. and ive said what i've wanted to say.had a long day today. it was fun :)
i'll prolly post something up on New Year's Eve, or even before that. Still not sure of what my New Year's Eve plans are gonna be. but i guess im just gonna go with the flow. yeah, i'd do that :)

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS, by the way?

ps: i miss band :( the feeling you get when you play with everyone :S hmmm. i miss marching, i miss camps, i miss going for outdoor events. oh well. i played my clarinet today, so so satisfying to be able to play, and to actually remember everything i've been taught about, for the past 5 years :) yes, it was a good feeling :) and it was nice seeing my clarinetists. my clarinetists :)

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